Songtext That' wasn't me, that was patricia Anna Clendening

That' wasn't me, that was patricia

The scariest place that I have ever been
Is in my own head around 2 am
The room it will spin and I'll feel sick
My chest it will heave and I cannot breathe
Panicking, frantically, so depressed, manically
Pop a few pills to maybe do the trick

Cause no amount of music can cover the screams
And no television shows can hide the voices it seems
I'm sitting in my bed, with my hands over my head, wishing this was all just a dream
I'm sitting in my bed, with my hands over my head, wishing this was all just a dream

The silence is the loudest thing that's ever filled my head
The voices telling, yelling at me I should be dead
The silence is the loudest thing that's ever filled my head, whens it gonna stop?
Never they say
You better off dead

If someone put a gun to my head
I would gladly pull the trigger
Cause when you are already dead inside
There is nothing else to live for
You'd be doing me a favor
Literally blowing my mind
By showing me a piece of what's on the inside
A mess I must confess a bit twisted
Yes I get it, I'll admit it
I'm just a little bit weird
Oh dear but
In this day and age aren't we all a little bit strange?
And all the voices we are starting to hear
In this day and age aren't we all a little bit strange?
And all the voices we are starting to hear

Silence is the loudest thing that's ever filled my head
Voices telling, yelling at me I should be dead
Silence is the loudest thing that's ever filled my head, whens it gonna stop?
Never they say
You're better off dead

They say jump from that window sill
We wont catch you but the ground will
Jump from that window sill
We wont catch you but the ground will
Jump from that window sill
We wont catch you but the ground will