Songtext Promise Jelly Roll

Promise

In a world that's full of hope, why am I alone?
Had this feeling so long my serotonin's gone
Even when I get high, why do I feel so low?
Never good at goodbyes, I hold on
I hate the man I see when I see myself
A reflection of hell

I told myself it’s different it’s so hard to believe
I know that I won’t change so I sold another dream
All the lives I told are burning holes inside
And I don’t, I don’t know why
I broke a promise to myself

As I stand here again all covered in mud
And I’m drenched in my sins
What have I become?
I said the last time that would be my last time
Not good at goodbyes, I hold on
If I jumped off this ledge would you catch my fall?
Would you care at all?

I told myself it’s different it’s so hard to believe
I know that I won’t change so I sold another dream
All the lives I told are burning holes inside
And I don’t, I don’t know why
I broke a promise to myself

All the stages of shaken
All the roads that I’ve taken
Wondering if I can really make it
Feeling so depressed I’ve been humbled and humiliated
All the truth I’ve mistaken for the things I thought saved me
It’s like nobody knows
At any given second I feel like I might explode

I told myself it’s different it’s so hard to believe
I know that I won’t change so I sold another dream
All the lives I told are burning holes inside
And I don’t, I don’t know why
I broke a promise to myself