Songtext October Blackfield

October

My happiness is buried in the sand
In the backyard of my life, I can't remember where
Think it was October's rain that watched me cry
No one else was around my happiness

Diving to the bottom of the sea
To find the wild white pearls which hide from me
And only empty shells were lying there
Like my happiness, my happiness

And when you see me running
Don't assume I'm running somewhere I belong
And when you see me crying
Don't feel sorry for me

My happiness is a like a snake
It slides below the wooden floor to the darkest place
And just sits and waits til no one's there
Just like my happiness, my happiness

And when I see you smiling
I come to you. I'm trying
To steal your smile for me
I hate you when you're glowing
The way you're walking
Between my tears

So when you see me running
Don't assume I'm running somewhere I belong
And when you see me crying
Don't feel sorry for me

So when I die and October comes
And the leaves start falling down upon the ground
And when the rain will stop you can be sure
I've found my happiness