Songtext First reactions after falling through the ice La Dispute

First reactions after falling through the ice

I knew it was far too late
To walk out on the lake then
Halfway to the middle thawed
I wasn't doing all that great

Had I cut my hair short?
Had I grown my beard out long?
Had I gone to school or...?
Why do all my plans fall through?

(There's a leak in the basement)
(Stupid permanent estrangement)
(Casement windows need glazing)
(Hinges and arms need be replaced)

All the way at the edge I said I think
That we should head back
What if now the ice cracked?
Think I felt it bend

We took opposite steps
Tried to even the stress
Picked a safe direction but
You never know the way the ice thins

Half-asleep in dreams where
Ceilings start collapsing
Free fall through the roof beams
Get startled back awake me

Before you hit the pavement
Floor and foundation
Water in the basement
Bodies in the lake

Don't panic I could hear you
Saying as I fell through
Blackness complete down
Waiting 'til my feet touched ground

At the bottom they finally did
First reaction was this is it
Next thought was just
Stay calm kick up and save your phone

(Because I wanted to tell you)
(I thought you should know)
(Because I thought it might scare you)
(To see me under the ice)
(Make you remember you cared for me)
(What would you do if I died?)
(Would you fly out for my funeral?)
(Get too drunk at my wake?)
(Would you make a scene then?)
(Climb in and try to resuscitate me?)

I was on the ice and I was underwater
I was getting pulled out, I was in my wet clothes
Stumble on the walk back,
Someone stoked the fire at camp

I was by the flames
Trying to get my body warm
I was standing naked
Checking to see if my phone still worked

I will cut my hair short
Trust me, I will
I will let my beard go
Trust me, I will
I will never tempt fate
Not once, I swear
I will never trust ice
I will never trust a thing