Songtext Numbers Okkervil River

Numbers

It was not what I thought it would be.
I have made my mistake,
now I come running to you
like you said I would do.
It's so hard not to hide
cause you're safe.

Now I need protection
from all the things I have made,
so I come flying to you
like you swore I would do,
but there's only a stone
in your place.

Well, they said
I needed protection from life,
but it's over now.
Give me strength,
I need resurrection again,
let it all come out.

They said "it's just minor surgery,
just one tiny scar,"but I drove home in my car
and it seemed like so far,
and the gas needle fell
like a star.

Numbers come and they crowd me out
in a cloud above my head.
I fight each equation till it's dead,
then I put them to bed
and I paw at the hole
in my chest.

How could you let me become this?
How could you make my small bones
grow as tall as a tower?
Oh, take my power away,
I'm begging you
to take it away.

Hold my hand as you lay me down.
Reach into that jar,
cause I am ready to restart,
and you can even stop my heart
if there's no going back,
no escape.

Well, they said
I needed protection from life,
but it's over now.
Give me strength,
I need resurrection again,
let it all come out.