Songtext Barely surviving (ride or die) Twiztid

Barely surviving (ride or die)

Can't get a job anymore cuz I'm a gangbanging Juggalo
According to the cops report
Just went in and out of this store
Had to return couple of things
I've purchased from there before
Clerk giving me hard time like I committed a crime
I'm on no lie [?]
Keep on tellin' 'em I'm [?]
To a deeper emotion
And I'm keeping on going up out of my minds
So I decided to leave 'em behind
[?]
Finally I can see them, talking and kinda kickin'
Speaking about my tattoos, classified as a cashew-I'm nutty
Cuz a I'm a Juggalo, gang member and bloody
[?] have arrived
Brought you here to let you know that's nothing more but a fact
And keep being a Juggalo

Life has a weight trying to wear me down
And it gets worse every time I turn around
(They keep me treating like nothing
I feel like I'm drowning and I'm barely surviving)
I don't like the way the world looks right now
Wanna leave it all behind but I don't know how
([?] and down
And I'm just hoping that one day I can figure it out)

Fuck their opinions and oversights of our living
I'm hoping amongst the hatred we find some sense of forgiving
I'm hoping that just by taking the first steps of living, we're reshaping what was deformed at birth, a new beginning, so singing the songs for the sinners
So many know the words
When they tryna to be overly righteous, that's feeling absurd
Man I'm so tired of all this fighting, shit is wearing me down
To the point I no longer care a "hi"/"hey" out of their mouth
I'm depressed on the verge of giving up, but I know I'm great
I'm just blowing up something lost in the moment and talking shit
I wanna leave it all behind, but in my mind all I find
That I'm alive, and then come all the insane overtimes
[?] the time that keeps passing me by
[?] I'm out of my head, my hands, emotionally tired
If they die another day put my hands together and pray
There ain't no giving nothing I can't handle, please take it away
You discredit goodness [?] like a Jesus swallow it first
And then pause and move minds, put me on the [?]

Life has a weight trying to wear me down
And it gets worse every time I turn around
(They keep me treating like nothing
I feel like I'm drowning and I'm barely surviving)
I don't like the way the world looks right now
Wanna leave it all behind but I don't know how
([?] and down
And I'm just hoping that one day I can figure it out)

....

Heavenly father, I'm down on my knees
Thinking "why even bother?"
Can't change what they think, stacking above me
I'm alone as I can be and I feel like hostage
To everything you believe

Anger always seems to get me down
I just can't take it any longer
Life keeps on pausing and insanity's calling
And reality falling away from me
Can somebody help me?
Say a prayer for whoever cares and kill me

You got the weight of the World on your shoulders
And you ready to ride or die
Don't let anybody convince you how you live it or how you're living your life

You got the weight of the World on your shoulders
And you ready to ride or die
Don't let anybody convince you how you live it or how you're living your life

You got the weight of the World on your shoulders
And you ready to ride or die
Don't let anybody convince you how you live it or how you're living your life

You got the weight of the World on your shoulders
And you ready to ride or die
Don't let anybody convince you how you live it or how you're living your life

You got the weight of the World on your shoulders
And you ready to ride or die
Don't let anybody convince you how you live it or how you're living your life